How to write a novel or something like that

I had this idea of changing my life
as if it would not do that on its own
as if I was fucking Captain Nemo
and he just let me have it my way
and dream that the dream was my own
and not his offhand invention.

So back to changing my life
by becoming a writer, aw shit,
that sounds like something I would have said
longer ago than I can rightly remember
but still, still, still, I can pretend
and it seems that I live on for another day

so why not, 'drive, I sd
for christ's sake, look
out where yr going.'
It doesn't matter where you go,
just get going somewhere, looking
back only to make yr way
forward.